Impressive Reply

Don't you ever change, Missy.

Scribble Behind Book

He was running from reality.
Kept his head up; prevent from tearing.
Broken inside; happiness put aside.
That tiny smile is mirroring mine: empty.
I want to feel bad for him but can't.
Things just went as planned before.

 what

My negotiator is a penguin.
He's not a saint nor devil.
Just reasoning in effective yet troublesome way. (not fun!)
Maybe I have to reform him, so...
*disturbing doodle*

the heck was I thinking
...class X me had a few screws loose :/

Can You Tell Me?

1. how a bridge like this could last for four months.

2. Why didn't I join this unit sooner?

Alay pisan =)) saya pengen ketawa terus sama unit yang satu ini.
Jelang pelantikan malah maen game lari-lari kayak bebentengan? Aseeeek
Kak Elmo dan Kak Daus memang pantes jadi titan

3. How the heck I got full score for unruly answers like this:

most of my friends drawn measured pic and wrote a paragraph for each explanation... they got 11
I did what -I'm tired and fell asleep in this exam- but also got 11.
Architecture lecturers are very perceptive, aren't they? =))

Distress Signal

Uhhhh.... Some kind of coping mechanism? =))

Downtime

I wish I talk coherent 
I wish I remember better
I wish I can multitask
I wish I am confident
I wish I am not shy
I wish I am less distracted
I wish I am more expressive
I wish I am an extrovert

I wish I wish I wish
Dear God, I did my best but there are things that cannot be changed.
If it is supposed to be that way, please explain the purpose of my existent.
Thank You.

Apaan Nih?!

Tadi pagi... aku iseng baca entry lama blog ini. Salah satu yang berkesan itu pas baca cerita Kei dan Mayo. Heran sendiri kenapa mimpi bisa jadi se-vivid itu. Memang udah beberapa minggu terakhir ini kalau tidur gak pernah mimpi... mungkin karena kecapean atau terlalu serius ngutak-ngatik materi. Jadi ya... ku pikir aku yang sekarang tak seimajinatif jaman dulu. Sudahlah... terima saja karena memang masa depanku tidak sepenuhnya terkait seni rupa.
*ketawa miris*

Happy Day

Like I said before, July 9th is my birthday.
I've never mentioned it to college friends, so...
yesterday went by relatively in peace.
That, until Made shook my hand and calmly said
"It's your birthday, isn't it?"
Everyone around us stopped their activity.

Then, all hell broke loose.
Hand shakes, annual wishes, birthday songs,
teasings, free foods, modified chants, uproar.

For someone who always had a birthday in holiday,
this is a very surprising event. (an understatement)
Well yesterday we supposed to be in holiday too.
But assignment made us flock together for a long time.

We had to take pictures in places, so
100~ individuals traveled from campus to 6 spots in Bandung.
Ganesha Park to Dago Street to vacant lot below Pasupati
to railway station to Monumen Perjuangan to basecamp.
It was a refreshing trip...
No one put anyone in whachamacallit groups.
We were just having fun as one force called Baruna.

It was nice to be reminded that you're part of something.

Haha, I thought they just went along with Ayya's suggestion
to cheer and make commotion in public places =w=
But in afternoon Levi noticed me retreating.
"Be careful on your trip, birthday girl," he smiled
Huh, he regarded me.
Not only one moment kick?
Araaa... thank you everyone.
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Early today, I found something in my bag.

What is this, a black mail? =))

oooh intimidating heart marks

Let's see what is this all about...

"Assume this is you and the chocolate.

I'm not sure whether (the chocolate) will be eaten or not after you see this picture.

[skip] ...sorry the paper is torn and wasn't cut properly.

I am not in good term with scissor."

Oh, this is from Lina...

A friend who can cut expertly with cutter blade, 

but cannot do the most simple task by scissor.

(seriously, 3 hand cuts for piercing a hole through infraboard?!)

What is she talking about, anywa—

OH MY GOD I CANT BREATH

Fading Away

Today, one of my old friend greeted me on Facebook.
He wrote "Hi", I replied "Hello", then "Long time no see" replied "Yeah indeed"
Then the simple exchange turned into conversation.
Current life, his contract and dream, our friends, their conditions. Yada yada...
and then there's me... struggling to remember the dear friend across computer.

Oh wait, no.
Those written names seem like some faint whispers too.
I know I knew them. I know they were part of my life.
But it feels like that life has ended long time ago.
So far away, surrounded by blinding fog.
Their life is like different timeline alongside of mine.
All of them are happily in contact... and then there's me,
sailing in other stream to unknown spring. 

I just realized.
Those outside Abnopet didn't crossed my path.
Those people outside cannot cross my path.
It is not their fault I am cast like this.
It is the consequences of making important choice.
"School outside the town, say bye to your friends!"
Yeah, bye. 
...I hope my high school life will not fade away as quickly.
(fat chance, barely have presence in there.)

Weirdest Complaint Ever

(In this scene you will focus at Toothless and totally blocked out of Hiccup's babble. Hiccup the engineer, ahoy!)

It is said that non-verbal cues hold 60 to 70 percent of communication effectiveness. I guess it is true... or partially true, because things like that keep happening nowadays ._.

me: "May I ask something that completely unrelated?"
friend 1: "Sure, shoot away."
me: "How do you buy those drinks? I know you ask the cashier to get the cups... but, what do you say to the cashier to get the cups?"
friend 1: *pause in the middle of drinking through straw*
friend 2: "Why do you have to do that?!" *pull friend 1's hijab*
me: "Huh?"
friend 2: "You looks so cuuuute" *squeal like a fangirl*
me: *pull attention to friend 1* "So... how do you get it?"
friend 1: "...Can you repeat the question?"
me: "..."

me: "-but unfortunately, I forgot to bring my cellphone today... so in case you need me, I'll be in west campus center, trying to finish the RBL project. Buhbyee~"
*walk away*
*pause*
me: "Do you copy?"
friend 3: "Nope." *pinch my cheek*

friend 4: "Being hostile to each other is definitely counterproductive, right? So I said sorry first, even though I still feel it was not entirely my fault."
"But you know what she said? 'You should think first before comment on something' Can you believe that?"
me: "I've been in similar situation too" *went rambling about the subject with active gestures*
friend 4: *stop scowling and proceed to smile unconsciously*
me: *notice the change of expression*
"...Is there something wrong?"
friend 4: "Nuyu... you looks so cute."
me: "Am I ?" *annoyed glare*
friend 4: "...Sorry. But yeah, I agree with you... that was kind of harsh of her."

(shooting photos for Buku Kenalan in front of class)
me: "Sooo what do I have to do now?"
friend 5: "You strike a pose for each photo... one normal pose, one looks happy, and one for natural look."
me: "Pose a natural look?"
friend 5: "You don't. I will capture that randomly at will.
me: *dramatic gasp*
friend 5: "Okay, we're starting now... 3 2 1"
me: *do a composed pose*
friend 5: "Phase 2..."
me: *put one month worth of happiness in an expression*
*some people go inside the class and then pause when they see me*
me: *nervous* "...Is my face looks weird?"
someone I don't know: *astonished* "You looked cute..."
me: "Thanks?"

And... there's countless case of my friends blanked out when I chat animatedly about whatever. While I am grateful that I was considered aesthetically pleasing (narcissism? Yeah I need it for confidence in public... jk), I feel annoyed when people fail to see the content of what I'm saying or trying to do.

The Fai's Guide to Smooth Talk People

[Fai adalah penanggung jawab unit teater 2012. Mohon yang di bawah ini diaplikasikan dengan baik XD]

1. Kalau mau orang setuju, akhiri pertanyaan dengan "ya".
Contoh: "Lo mau jadi yang ngurus make-up, ya?"

2. Kalau mau tegas, akhiri pertanyaan dengan "gak".
Contoh: "Masih mau ikut STEMA gak? Kalau masih, besok dateng jam empat sore di KBL."

3. Kalau maksa orang jangan pake keduanya.
Contoh kejadian (by phone):
"Aya, lo jadi sutradara"
...
"Lah, salah sendiri lo gak dateng. Job laen udah penuh sama orang di sini."
*bunyi ribut protes*
"Coba kalau lo dateng, pasti hasilnya gak jadi gini."
*krusuk-krusuk*
"Oh ada kok, lagi ke WC" <--padahal orang yang ditanyaain gak dateng
"Iya, lo kalau mau tukeran, tanya aja orangnya."
..."Gue jadi pimprod. Mau tukeran?"
...
*senyum penuh arti* "Eh ini bukan kejahatan gue, ini kejahatan kelompok."
(ini yang dateng rapat melotot semua)
"Ah... kok jawabnya cuma satu kata, bosen kan bilang jahat doang?"
*!!!*
"Oh, jadi nambah satu kata... kejam."
...
"Iya... Ya... Siaaap"
...*tutup telepon*
"Noh kan dia bilang "Iya deh". Cuma jual mahal, apa tadi gue bilang, udah hapal."

(Kejadian bonus)
"Van, sekarang tinggal lo yang milih: Danus, lighting atau tata panggung?"
"Gue mau jadi bendahara aja deh."
"Gak ada bendahara, adanya danus." <--orang-orang kayaknya udah alergi sama kata ini
"Gak mau! Itu jadi urusannya si Abdi aja."
"Ya, jadi bendahara kan ngebantuin Abdi juga"
*dapet telepon dari Aya*
"Halo?"
...
"Oh iya, ntar ada pengarahan dulu kok. Eh lo butuh pembantu gak?"
..."Di samping gue? Ini ada si Ivan."
(Ivan bermuka masam)
"Emmm... dia masih nganggur nih."
...
"Ok, sip"
*putus telepon*
"Van, ntar kalau Aya minta pendapat dibantu ya..."

(beberapa saat kemudian Fai dapet BBM)
'Fai, gue jadi bendahara bisa gak?'
"Gak ada bendahara, adanya da--"
*backspace*
"adanya keuangan."

Akhirnya

(percakapan setelah pertemuan ke-2 Infinity, huruf miring: saya) XD
"Aku ikut Genshiken juga."
"Oh? Udah ngapain aja?"
 "Kemaren baru dibagi-bagi kelompok..."
"Hah?"
"Dibagi divisi gitu... aku ikut fandub."
"Aku ikut illus(trasi)~"
"Widiw, anak FSRD pasti banyak yang illus."
"Iya, emang penuhnya sama anak FSRD."
"Eh kalau cover lagu ada gak?"
"Masuknya fandub... kamu suka cover lagu?"
"Mana ada, suara saya ancur begini..." =))
"Masa sih? Aku sedang nyari orang yang suka nge-mix."
"Curiga kakak-kakak yang tadi bisa..."
"Harusnya bisa... tapi genrenya pasti beda." :(
(jalan lewatin campus center)
"Kemaren kakakku cerita kalau di Jepang banyak yang suka nge-dance."
"Oh iya! Kalau bikin circle gak tanggung-tanggung lagi. Di mana-mana dan gueeede."
"Iya! Dia katanya ngeliat gitu, orangnya banyak banget!"
"Di sono emang udah umum... di jalan, taman, apalagi di deket kampus--
(kepikiran: Akihabara, Yoyogi, Todai)
--terus gak cuma sekedar nge-dance, dance-nya direkam pula!"
(Odottemita!!!) 
"Sebenernya aku ikut ini juga karena itu."
"Aku juga!"
(o_o)
"Eh? Suka sama siapa??"
"...Melochin dan Nyantaro."
(O_O)
"Aku juga suka!"
berdua: "KYAAAA~!" <---ini beneran suaranya jadi "kya" loh ._.
"...eh buset, semangat amat."
"Iya dong, yang suka tuh jarang."
"Yang tau aja jarang~"
(jalan sampe deket FSRD)
"Eh kalian, aku langsung balik ya!"
"Dadah~! Ntar kita obrolin Melochin ya~!" XD

...aku gak pernah mimpi bakal ketemu seseorang yang bisa diajak ngobrol tentang odottemita. sepertinya aku gak bakal ngelepas unit yang satu ini.

Beware

Lama-lama orang males romantis karena entar disebut galau. Males peduli takut disebut kepo. Males mendetil takut dibilang rempong. Juga, lama-lama generasi mendatang males berpendapat takut dikira curhat. Males mengubah-ubah point of view dalam debat takut dibilang labil

Sudjiwo Tedjo (2012)

Mikir Apa Sih

Sebenernya pengen dihargai itu egois gak sih?
Egois emang selalu buruk?
Katanya orang yang cuma pengen bikin orang seneng gak bakal sukses.
Tunggu dulu, sukses itu apa?
Sukses itu berhasil... dan keberhasilan gak bisa diukur tanpa dihubungkan dengan nilai yang ada di masyarakat.
Kalau orang2 sekitar kita gak ada respon, berarti kita gak berhasil bikin impact.
Artinya, kita sama saja dengan orang lainnya. Biasa-biasa saja.
Berarti orang sukses itu pasti diapresiasi, alias dihargai.
Jadi kalau pengen dihargai mungkin artinya ia ingin dianggap berhasil.
Sanggupkah menanggung beban "berhasil"?
Orang berhasil itu bertanggung jawab dan dapat mengatur waktunya dengan baik.
Jadi kalau sukses itu baik, apa egois itu baik?
Define selfishness. Define success. Failed.

Katanya orang sukses belum tentu bahagia.
Tapi bahagia kan tergantung sama sudut pandang sendiri.
Bahagia itu apa? Aman secara emosional?
Orang sukses harusnya lebih mudah aman secara emosional.
...Mungkin malah sebaliknya. Karena ia jadi patokan orang lain.
Tergantung orangnya sih.
Jadi ada hubungannya gak sukses sama bahagia?
Kalau sukses belum tentu bahagia, kenapa banyak orang pengen jadi sukses?
Agar dihargai? Sukses untuk dihargai, dihargai untuk merasa sukses.
Doesn't make sense.

tatoebaaa anooo [piiiiiip] nooo [piiiiip] ga jitsuwa [piiiiip] tte iu koto sore wa mou [piiip] de [piiiiiiip] ga [piiiiipiiiriiiipiriiiruuupipirupipirupiruuupiriruuu]~♪

Sorry for being weird.
Thanks for reading.

Disturbing Thought

Something's bothering me for a while.

Something To Look Forward To

DVD in February... waiting for sub and beautiful HD video
Please please please please break my heart.
The resemblance between Gin and manga!Natsume is uncanny.
*hug stuffed penguin*

Hahahachim

       Secara perlahan, hujan menghampiri tempat ku menunggu. Awalnya gerimis, namun gerimis berubah menjadi hujan kecil. Hujan kecil lalu berubah menjadi hujan deras. Hujan deras lalu menggubah simfoni yang mendatangkan rasa sepi. Butiran air jatuh di berbagai benda menimbulkan banyak suara. Namun tetap saja, simfoni itu hanya dimainkan oleh satu hal. Hal yang tidak membiarkan bunyi lain melengkapi, hal yang membungkap suara orang-orang dibalik tirai airnya. Tidak membiarkanku tentram, aku benci menunggu dalam hujan.

*lempar diri ke jurang*

なんじゃこりゃ!? part 2

Cerita mimpi bagian ke 2~
Udah agak lupa detailnya, jadi mohon maklum kalo banyak adlib (terutama di bagian percakapan ^^;). Inti ceritanya masih sama persis... mungkin bagi banyak orang cerita ini gak rame, tapi bagi aku mimpi ini terlalu indah untuk dilupakan (halah).Ya, isinya penuh dengan cameo dan mengacu pada hal-hal ngaco.

Lanjutan dari sini.
"Ayo kita teliti pengaruh pupuk tanaman terhadap mamalia."
...
Hening.
Lawan bicara si flower boy pasti sedang ngebayangin situasi-situasi terburuk yang bisa terjadi... perkataan Kei memang sering bersifat ambigu. Siapa tahu ajakannya kali ini adalah kontrak menjual diri kepada makhluk supranatural secara terselubung.

Untuk melanjutkan percakapan, aku langsung mengembalikan hamster-hamster Mayo ke kandangnya masing-masing.
"Kei, kalau kamu mau makan pupuk kandang, gak usah bawa-bawa yang lain juga deh..."
"Yeh... siapa juga yang nyebut-nyebut pupuk kandang?"
Mayo mengerutkan keningnya: satu kemungkinan dicoret dari daftar.
"Jadi maksudnya gimana?"
"Inget percobaan si Elin minggu kemaren gak?"
"Percobaan bikin pupuk yang mirip mercon itu? Gimana gak inget, kayaknya dia ngomongin itu minimal sekali dalam satu jam."
"Yup. Kayaknya kita bakal nguji hipotesis dia. Dia bilang pupuknya gak berbahaya bagi animalia kan?"
"Itu kan baru hipotesis, kalo ternyata salah gimana?"
"Kan kita pake hamster percobaan..."
...
"IH... Jangan pake hamster aku!", respon Mayo telat (banget).
"Lah terus kamu bawa-bawa hamster ke sini buat apa?", tanyaku tanpa perasaan.
"Biar gak dimakan kucing tetangga sebelah..."
Hadeuh... Mayo menunjukan wajah unyu-nya. Tanpa buang waktu, Kei melakukan manuver 3.1
"Mayo-chan~ kamu tahu siapa Elin kan?"
"Iya."
"Siswa teladan, peraih nilai terbaik, juara olimpiade kimia?"
"Iya, terus?"
"Juri internasional udah mengakui kemampuannya, masa kamu gak percaya sama hipotesis dia?"
"Hemm..."
"Percayalah padanya, Mayo. Percayalah pada kami... percayalah pada ku."
"..."
Tuhan... kenapa banyak glitter dalam adegan ini?
"Ok, kita bisa dapet pupuknya darimana?"
...Anak ini akhirnya termakan kegantengan Kei yang menyesatkan.

(bersambung lagi, will be updated in few hours)
kenapa nulis percakapan itu susah pisan? Mikirnya lama banget tapi jadinya sedikit ;_;

なんじゃこりゃ!?

/indonesian-mode

Gila... hari ini aku mimpi random banget! Gak terlalu aneh kayak mimpi pada umumnya sih... tapi, mimpi tentang sekolah fiktif tiba-tiba kan agak aneh juga. Kangen hari-hari masuk sekolah kali ya? Langsung aja deh aku cerita...

Jadi begini... dalam mimpi itu, aku adalah seorang murid SMA sekolah internasional dengan seragamnya yang lucu. Cring~ seragamnya jenis-jenis loli sopan... skema warna hitam, putih dan merah. Untungnya di cerita ini aku adalah seorang tomboy yang gak pernah mau pakai rok, jadinya sehari-hari make seragam cowok deh. *gak penting*XD

Hari itu adalah hari Sabtu, awal hari libur setelah 5 hari megap-megap ngeliatin guru mengajar. Orang waras pada umumnya menikmati pagi hari mereka dengan bersantai di rumah. Sayangnya aku gak termasuk orang yang waras, kawan-kawan. Aku pergi ke sekolah pagi buta cuma untuk ngerjain tugas kelompok biologi... fyi, my friends and I are proscrastinators. Tugasnya udah dikasihin lama tapi baru dikerjain beberapa jam sebelum deadline.

Yang namanya tugas kelompok, pasti gak dikerjain sendiri dong... ya, aku ngerjain bareng 2 makhluk bernama Kei dan Mayo. Karena aku males ngetik cerita secara beradab, lebih baik karaker-karakternya dideskripsikan di sini...

Mayo adalah cewek cute yang paling waras di antara kami bertiga. Kalau boleh ambil contoh, sifatnya mirip salah satu temanku di IPA 1. Logis, gak suka buang waktu, bermoral, suka ngerandom dan peduli dengan teman-temannya (siapakah itu?) Yang berbeda adalah... meskipun ia bersifat logis, ia juga bersifat luar biasa polos. Jangan tanya "Kok bisa?" karena aku juga bingung. Satu lagi tentang Mayo: aku gak tahu nama dia yang sebenernya. Dikasih nickname begitu karena dia suka makan pake mayones *plakk*

Kei? ...Singkat cerita dia mirip Yuki Yamada dengan kepribadian seperti kecengan saya. Hmm... ya enggaklah. Dia ini sepertinya punya kepribadian ganda. Hari-hari biasa lagaknya mirip idol sekolah: tenang, mempesona, kaya dan terpelajar. Tapi kalau udah iseng... innalillahi, satu sekolah bisa diliburin... tipe trickster yang sakit jiwa stadium 4. Saya sendiri, partner in crime nya Kei, bukan berperan sebagai orang membosankan yang nyeritain ini mimpi. Tiba-tiba aku jadi temen lama yang terakhir kali ketemu waktu SMP: Sheilla Fadhilah.

Kembali ke cerita...
Pagi hari di akhir minggu, cuma segelintir anak OSIS kerajinan yang berkeliaran di sekolah. Sekolah jadi keliatan serem karena luas tapi gak ada aktivitas sama sekali... kayak kuburan pahlawan deh. Untungnya setelah melewati semak-semak tak terdefinisi milik ekskul agrobisnis, aku langsung ketemu Mayo di depan lab Biologi. Sepertinya dia udah siap dengan segala percobaan chaotic yang akan segera berlangsung. Dia sengaja bawa hamster-hamster peliharaannya dalam kandang terpisah. (udah bosen melihara?) 

Kei dateng dengan tampang sok imut satu jam kemudian. Sementara itu, Mayo udah bosen nungguin dan ingin segera melesat ke kamar mandi*?*. Karena kepengen Kei merasa bersalah, aku menyibukan diri dengan hamster-hamsternya Mayo. 2 orang yang tersisa kini duduk berhadap-hadapan di bawah pohon. K-I-S-S-I-N-G~ Terdiam dan saling berpandangan.
... "Jadi kita mau ngapain nih?", Mayo memulai percakapan, suaranya menyiratkan kekesalan.
"Memangnya kita disuruh ngapain?"
"Bikin laporan penelitian, temanya bebas."
"Oh... Sel, ada ide gak?"
Masih ngejagain hamster jalan-jalan di alam terbuka, aku cuma bisa angkat bahu.
"Aku punya ide... tapi agak aneh nih."
"..."
Mayo terdiam, sepertinya bel tanda bahayanya udah mulai bunyi nih.
"Ayo kita teliti pengaruh pupuk tanaman terhadap mamalia."

[bersambung, saya harus pergi dulu]

too lazy to make a proper post

>okay, there's no point for me to watch this...
but i'm curious about battling shadow kanji
...and why suddenly everyone play catherine? *_*
[/irrelevant]

>livejournal's down, tumblr too.
when i found out tumblr actually wasn't, i rose my eyebrow.
oh... all of them changed their urls at the same time.
its character names and their conversation became funny.
i cannot unsee those characters said that.
a person put something up, and then one of her besties was like
"haaa where have you been? i miss u"
...people said i don't like slash pairing. but... OTL  

>i.cannot.find.the.game.videos. please someone tell me.
>harry potter hit indonesia, finally...
i won't see it early though. have fun you all, without me ;_;

Olé!

The time seems running out faster lately. Yeah, 2nd week of school and it's already busy. Apparently, most of people in my class are restless and learn so fast. I wonder how could they do so many things in 24 hours a day... is it a conspiracy!?

A mini post...
Today's the first time I learned drawing at Villa Merah. It was fun! I met many new people and got comfortable with the new class. I met Adinda, Ghia, Gitta, Febe, Achi, ...and I forgot the rest. Hehe, they are all interesting but I don't think I have the ability to memorize all of them at once. They're like... 30 different individuals, oh well. So~ at this merry moment we were given a task to draw whatever we want at a piece of paper. Rule one: no erasing, rule two: don't smudge, rule three: finish it within 100 minutes, and rule four: it's A2 size paper. ...I don't think anyone at class would say drawing is easy at this early point. ^^;

And then we got a homework~ it's drawing the same thing all over again but no time limit's given... that's mean we have to finish our picture no matter what.  

Weird... I was asdfghjkly extroverted today

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#Mood: excited
#Things to do: clean my room, study, copy notes, buy books, draw on that ridiculous paper that successfully covered my desk.
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