Twister

Uhh... hi, hello, one semester has passed since the last time I wrote journal in here hahaha. I'm sorry, long time no write!
My life had been a twister lately. It's spiraling down, it's spiraling up, I don't know what's good or what's bad anymore. One moment I'm laughing out loud, one moment I'm crying with my hand figuratively bleeding. No more routine, no more scheduled activity. Shots were fired but every single things missed it's target; very confusing, really. I think I'm going insane if this kind of things persisted after holiday. The up and down's too much for me to take.

Sooo what happened in this semester?
Honestly, I forget most of flag events... but... on the top of my head:
-Field study three times a month, turning in studio assignments two times a week.... lot of revisions and then, there were also studio jury. Whee~ weekend's a myth~!

-G-14 inauguration...
I was asked to adopt a junior sister and somehow became buddy-buddy with her friends also... everyone joined KOMI-G now yaaay (it was sub unit of my himpunan, hobby based unit, a unit of comic enthusiasts.)

-Inktober and sudden flame of writing prose.
Thanks to Abdur and Syifa, we have book writing project called MUSA Menulis... unfortunately, the project was not sailing quite smoothly because of academic matters. I even haven't hand the first draft in =w= But Abdur's such a cool guy, he published his book, made a launching event in mid of final week. Whoa...

-joining a community outside of ITB...
What? This is considered out of character, you see. My friends who has same personality type would never try to pull this stunt off. Everything is different, outside the comfort zone... but who cares, we need to take scary opportunities sometimes.

-bed ridden in mid semester for three days
In need to catch up with studio mates, my lecturer set up an assistance in her office, Wednesday morning. I skipped class in order to meet her... waited 2 hours in her office, watching her talking with business men... Then she whisked me to this small empty meeting room... Waiting awkwardly in there for another 2 hour, only to be informed by her subordinates: "She already left to Jakarta", subtext: "I am sorry, she had forgotten about you." asdfghjkl

-did the devil whisper.
In mid of studio blues, my friend and I engaged in a talk of changing lane outside of architecture. The next day... my friend didn't come to school because of stress reaction... and the next day... and the next day and another day... counting for a week. I'm going to believe the saying "if there were a type who can talk you to slit your throat, it was INFP." scary....

-Another comic project
Kept bothering upperclassman to hold workshop for KOMI-G... and then suddenly... whala~! Azisa Noor became our adviser! We have this mini comic compilation project due next semester. See if we can brought Chris lie someday, somehow :v

-plotting and rendering image war
In need of high end laptop to do these heavy studio assignments. Nuff said... this war isn't fair for the poor.

Kesal

Saya sih orangnya nerima-nerima aja... mau ide absurd kek, mau omongan random kek, mau alasan ngarang kek, mau perintah keras kek. Selama gak merugikan orang lain ya gapapa lah... saya diem aja. Tapi yah, tolong... kalau saya mulai bicara, dengarkan. Saya bicara bukan karena sok tahu atau sekedar cari muka. Saya bicara karena merasa ada yang janggal atau ada alternatif yang lebih baik. Kalaupun gak setuju biarkan perkataan saya lewat telinga anda. Jangan dipotong atau langsung dibantah, lah. Coba kalau tadi saya gak ambil tindakan sendiri. Kita bakal kena semprot Bu Lily, tauk!

Nearly Done

Informal presentation to client today... whew.

ignore the generic powerpoint theme we use, please XD
It must be great to be a college teacher. You can do your job by handing over some labors to random students you meet at campus. Pfft... How trusting, you are, Sire... Thank you very much for the experience.
(Will be nice if I end up with Abdur and Dani in SPA3 group. Really. Double awesome bros, they are!)

Seserius itu?

Barusan saya berhasil curhat ke dosen wali mengenai kegalauan studio kemarin... intinya sih saya jadi gak pede desain gara-gara clash terus masalah estetika sama dosen pembimbing. Feelingnya jadi kacau, gak bisa ambil kesimpulan mana yang bagus, mana yang jelek.
Ehhh, ternyata ibu yang dicurhatin juga punya pengalaman yang mirip-mirip.
Tadi beliau komentar sambil mengingat tragedi yang dialami oleh diri sendiri ._.
Kesimpulannya gimana?
Beliau menyarankan saya ambil sks wajib saja (15 sks) untuk semeseter depan.
Beri waktu untuk menghargai diri sendiri, katanya...
Jangan pikirin arsi sampai tanggal masuk kuliah, katanya...
BUSET DAH.
Orang lain mah ambis belajar software Bu, liburan ini...

Second Touchdown

Sketch-Up model from measuring Masjid Al-Asyiqien, Bandung; Our project is nearly done!

So... I'm working with Abdur and Ramdhani right now... two of most time-effective students in my studio (imho). I tried to catch up with their pace, but lo-and-behold! ended up sick and burned out of my mind. Pffft. Whatever. This is certainly the most productive school break I've ever lived. turning to masochistic workaholic, somebody please help me.

Perasaan ini Campur Aduk

"Kak Nurul, dulu waktu SMA jadi ketua ekskul apa sih?"
"Hah?"
*lirik Eja di ruang sebelah* "Jadi ketua ekskul apa?"
"...Mangkok, ekskul seni rupa gitu."
"Loh, terus kenapa ga masuk FSRD aja?"
"...Emmm"
"Kak Nurul dulu mau masuk SR, Ki... tapi pilihan satunya FTI, pilihan duanya SAPPK."
"Alhamdulillah, Kakak ga masuk FTI."
"Iya, Alhamdulillah Kak."
"Kok 'Alhamdulillah'? kenapa gitu dengan FTI, saya gak pantes yah?"
"Kalau masuk FTI kan gak bisa masuk arsi..."
"Bener Kak, lebih bagus masuk SAPPK. Jadinya bisa belajar di arsi..."

gak bisa milih antara senang dan galau......... dua-duanya, kali ya?

Goodbye, Graduation Day!

Frankly, this is the first time what was I working on got so much recognition. We don't even need our own camera to file our works. These few decors made it out to Pikiran Rakyat and Ganeca Pos. =P

Be Right Back, Laughing

Fat frog, googly eyed toy, pink penguin, horror bag and... a drawing from unexpected person. It seems like birthday became the excuse of "gimme your best shot amusing me, today." ...didn't realize people actually listen to my random ramblings; should be more cautious from now XD
(Thank you everyone!)

Flowers to You, People

The first time I was given notice that holiday's just a name, I was like "Nooo, why meee? Where's my holidaayy?" But then... everything changed to "Nooo, why hiiim?!" or "Nooo, why herr?!" OR "Nooo, NOT THEM!" nowadays ._. After spending time in organizations, I just realized that I don't get that bad of workload. MANY people have much heavier responsibilities in this campus. Yes, very ashamed of being whiny before this point. Sorry... really really am sorry. I'm trying in my fullest capacity to stop being a ninja, please believe; I'll be your warrior of justice instead :*

First thing first... this is the source of agony in my post before this one.

Central committee of graduation parade... quite troublesome isn't it?

Well... mine is troublesome. Others' are... not so much.

It is in 'panic inducing' categories for other divisions.

For example Andre fighting tooth and nail for Warisan Swasta...

He has to gain about 20 million rupiahs in only a month ._.

There's also Hanifan... went through birocrazy to provide 29 3x3 m² flags for himpunan ...only to get bashed in coordination meeting yesterday. Ick.

Knowing that I can't be around for local graduation event, I was recruited in fund raising division.

So umm... there's new practice enforced in Penjenjangan: you have to bring one liter milk/juice if you come later than 15 minutes. Lot of people comes late everyday so... opportunity for business? I tracked milk provider to its manufacturer in Cimahi... and then ordered 2 dozens of carton milk delivered to home. Too bad, the milk truck never come until now (You can't buy milk on site, so, what I did is pretty much useless. At least now I know how supermarket works TAT).

Good thing, Lina my division leader got everything under control. She sells about 70 ice cream mochis per day... don't know about other sells (drinks and choco dipped fruits?)... she always come back and forth hourly with ice boxes. That's lot of things to handle for field committee in Penjenjangan. Wow.

In Penjenjangan itself... I am in event-managing division. What we do is connecting people, making rundowns and writing notes. Things that can be handled in background.

From background.... I see people got busy EVERYWHERE.

Yes... 2012 batch busy being senior for 2013, so... for my division, graduation decor, I recruited people from 2013. (Uh.. just realized I never take picture of them)

Who knows that they can be MUCH busier than 2012? There's committee training for OSKM, Osjur (department admission event), Open House Unit and KM (student body) activities for them!

^line of 2013 batch in training for OSKM; they have ton to do, maan... writing resume, journal, collecting their friends' signature and photos, preparing specification, daily assignment, standard boring stuff.

^a detailed model of residential cluster; one of assignments for new architecture students in Penjenjangan... time of completion: less than single day orz

When I crossed architecture building two days ago around 7 pm, I met Issha, one of my division member.
She looked like ready to fall down any minute... but all she gotta say to me was how she wish to be able to help me in decoration ;_;
I knew pretty well that Penjenjangan's assignment was borderline sadist...
When I asked her how much sleep she had gotten the night before, she weakly smiled to me and said...
"Got it covered at 5 pm." TAT

There are actually many drama around the decor members... all of it was because clashing schedule..... but they still took a chance to help decor here and there...

For all of you, people... I just wanna say...

YOU ARE LOVED VERY DEARLY!! Thank you so much bro and sistah! >_<

Special mention:

You see, the committee of graduation parade are consisted by numbers of SMAN 2 Bandung graduates... topics like 'back in high school' was inevitable when we gathered, then. They even brought the topic to internal meeting, in front of the rest of committee members. To be honest, this weirded me out; like one world was thrown to another, carelessly. They also keeps mentioning Agent M and Agent A's names to me. (Example: "Still in contact with M?" "Yea, just chatted with her, yesterday." "How is she?" "Busy drawing Seine River and Louvre Museum.")

It floors me down with realization: I haven't do much for our comic project this holiday. orz. Sorry agents, saya tepar.

End of Semester 4

So holiday is starting and I started to make list of what I wanted supposed to do in free time.
BUT SUDDENLY
"Hey Nurul, are you busy June to July?"
If you asked whether I am busy or not, the answer would be...
"No, not really..."
Then they shoved responsibilities down my throat.
...
News flash, people! Free time is needed to maintain sanity...
Especially if you usually burn to crisp by academic routine.
Why the hell am I tangled in KM ITB matters when I already have PJJGN to take care of?

Impressive Reply

Don't you ever change, Missy.

Terima Kasih

Sungguh, aku ingin menangis. Ketika diri ini terjerembab, jatuh, hampir putus asa, aku teringat teman-temanku. Mungkin apa yang mereka lakukan mereka anggap biasa saja. Tapi percayalah... seuntai kalimat, senyuman kecil, tepukan di punggung, sapaan hangat, pelukan rindu... hal-hal seperti itu membuat diriku tersadar bahwa aku termasuk orang yang beruntung.

Aku masih punya kalian.

Kalaupun tak bisa bangkit untuk diri sendiri, aku ingin menjadi orang yang lebih baik untuk kalian.
Terima kasih banyak... sampai jumpa esok hari ya, kawan.

Simply Stunning

7-11 April: final project exhibition

11 April
1.00 pm: department event
3.00 pm: turn in studio assignment
5.00 pm: foolish story (graduation celebratory event)

12 April
5.00 am: graduation day
3.00 pm: procession
8.00 pm: inauguration
9.00 pm: evaluation
I'm guessing our division leaders were not sleeping properly for at least...
two weeks. How the heck did they function yesterday?!

...Even the evaluation went on like this:
2012: "We're very sorry... this is the best we can do."
2011: "We have watched you struggle this week...
Don't worry, you've done great."
2010: "We are coming from different generation. How can we improve?"
2009: "We're truly happy for what you've done for us.
Please forgive our harsh comments."
"Let's just go home and get some rest. Don't get sick, you all."

IT'S A VERY WEIRD MEETING usually our seniors always hot on the trail, but noo

Anyway... long time no blog. How are you people?
*last pic: credit to Sulfa Heksania*

Now Shush

New semester has just begun...

Scribble Behind Book

He was running from reality.
Kept his head up; prevent from tearing.
Broken inside; happiness put aside.
That tiny smile is mirroring mine: empty.
I want to feel bad for him but can't.
Things just went as planned before.

 what

My negotiator is a penguin.
He's not a saint nor devil.
Just reasoning in effective yet troublesome way. (not fun!)
Maybe I have to reform him, so...
*disturbing doodle*

the heck was I thinking
...class X me had a few screws loose :/